Teach me to number my days

One of the most interesting and significant dynamics about God is that He works with eternity. You and I work within a parameter of time, our lives. One of the largest realizations in my life came when I realized my life is not just about me… that I play a very specific part in a very specific frame of time.

I have this vivid image of my kids, when they were small. Every year on the 4th of July, they would run barefoot, double fisting sparklers. Truthfully, everyone has the same reaction when a sparkler is lit. It's incredibly amusing to watch. We all secretly want to run around and twirl them (whether or not we do).

There's something interesting about sparklers:
1. They're amusing. 
2. They burn out super quick. (While my kids were still writing their name, the sparkler just became a smoking rod.)

David writes this: "God, teach me to number my days that I will live wisely"

And, I've come to a realization. We can choose to take out lives (which are burning like a sparkler right now) and run around and show people all the stuff we can do with our gifts and talents. We can treat them as if they are an audience to our show.

OR we can become igniters. With our sparklers (lives), we can begin to light everybody around us. So by the time our sparkler is snuffed out, we leave a world that is burring and alive. One that is writing their names in the sky because we choose to live a life to ignite others with the cause of Christ.

I choose to ignite.

Facing Your Fears

Below is a post from one of our MessageMaker interns. MessageMakers is our ministry program that raises leaders to proclaim the hope of the world through the local church.


We all deal with some sort of fear in our life.  Every time I hear the word itself, all I can think about is what my mom used to tell me when I was little. “Fear stands for False Evidence Appearing Real (F.E.A.R).”  Only now can I truly grasp what that actually means to me as a Christian.  

Personally, I have dealt with fear of rejection and fear of failing. I don’t like not being accepted and I hate not getting things right the first time around. Just the thought of signing up for MessageMakers presented a moment where the thoughts of “what if people don’t like me?” and “what if I screw up?” kept floating in my head. Satan knows our deepest fears, and uses any opportunity to try and keep that fear instilled in us to prevent us from operating in the manner in which God has planned.  

God challenges me on a daily basis to face my fears, and in those moments He constantly reminds me that fear is not of Him, that He has given us a spirit of love and of power (2 Timothy 1:7).  Fear is a lie.  Fear deceives us and hinders us from taking the authority of peace that God says we have as his children.  

In dealing with rejection, I tend to avoid having many friendships or relationships in general in fear of losing it, or not being liked. Joining Message Makers I knew I’d be around people my age and people that love Jesus. I knew it would be a safe environment and a healthy one, but still, I almost let that fear stop me from joining. Clearly knowing that God wanted me on this journey, I just had to ignore the fear. I had to stop the devil in his tracks and proclaim the truth of God over my life.  Now that I am immersed in community with the fellow MessageMakers, it has tremendously helped me overcome this fear. God orchestrated this group so beautifully and knew how we could all help each other grow in some way. We compliment each others strengths and aid each others weaknesses. We all bring something different to the table, and have truly become family. 

In regards to failing, I just had to come to terms with the fact that it’s inevitable. We will all fail in some way or another. We are not perfect, but we are covered by an all-sufficient and perfect grace.  Without failing we will never notice the need for improvement in our lives.  While we are in some of the hardest time of our lives is when the most miraculous change happens.

We face our fears by being in constant search of God.  We need to seek out what he has to say about it.  Psalm 34:4 says “I sought the Lord, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears.” God can not lie!  Be mindful that our fears may not flee from us immediately.  A lot of times it requires us stepping out of our comfort zones. Once we decide to face our fears, subsequently, that fear intensifies. Our brains have an automatic way of thinking in those situations. Forcing ourselves to go to scripture and obtain a new way thinking helps us break this pattern. At the end of the day, we have to believe we are more than conquerors (Romans 8:37). God has already fought our fear for us.

Kaleigh Nolin

Kaleigh Nolin