I've had a phrase sitting in the pit of my stomach, squeezing between each pulse of my heart for far too long. The phrase has been "don't expect much and you won't be disappointed" - it's been a buffer for me, a buffer that has come to know in the ins and outs of disappointments. I carry this buffer with every text I receive, every email that I open, every morning I wake up and every drive I take.
I recently read Jeremiah 29:11:
Two words that stood out: a FUTURE & a HOPE
Such a tiny verse and such a big conviction. What I've come to realize is YOU REEL IN YOUR OWN EXPECTATIONS. When you expect disappointment, disappointment is what you get. Job says in the Old Testament, "what I feared came over me" ...
I've been challenged to live with an expectation of HOPE, rather than an expectation of disappointment. Something has quickened in my soul...when you begin to let God's promises shape your expectations, you reel in goodness.
God promises life and kindness over us: He says only goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, He will replace my feelings of anxiety and fear and take me from a place of striving and running and put me in a place of green pastures and still waters, He will prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies and His grace will fill my cup, again and again. (Psalm 23)
...and that's where I want to live from and lead from, green pastures and still waters. I can only lie down and rest when my faith is reeling in a future of hope.